Friday, September 01, 2006

Watching the grass grow

So my hair should start growing back now. Any day now. Annnnnnnnny day.

They say growth starts about 3 to 6 weeks after chemo ends--that's some range! It's been 3 and a half weeks, and if you run your hand over my head, you can feel that it's rough, but not really hairy. Maybe it's like the 5 o'clock shadow of a teenage boy whose beard hasn't fully arrived yet.

Last night I had a great dream. I dreamt that one afternoon I reached up to my head and found hair! It was very dark brown, and curly, and about chin length. I didn't know it was there, but suddenly I was running my fingers through my own hair. Excited, I began telling people how I awoke that morning with beard-like stubble, but during the day my hair had grown out that much. It was quite wonderful. Now, today, I feel so dissatisfied, wanting that to be true.

A month or so ago, in my support group, a woman who'd just finished chemo complained of her own frustration with wanting to be all better, now, against the reality that getting better was a slow process. I sympathized at the time, but I didn't understand. Now I do.

Meanwhile, I am going to start the new Hair Watch 2006. In May, it was a hairloss watch. Now, it's a hair growth watch. It takes a lot for me to do this, but I am going to post photos of my progress (from the back--I do have limits). So here's the first one, taken last Saturday, at zero growth. When there are notable changes, the HW will be updated.


Anonymous said...

OH SNAP!!!!! Now that is one fly-assed dome. Word.

Heidi and Sarah Face The Day said...

Howdy FM. I look forward to watching your hair grow in. Again, thanks for sharing it with us. Very brave.